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The tiny seed knows that in order to grow it needs to be dropped in dirt, covered in darkness and struggle to reach the light.
This week I faced a regular personal challenge; how to maintain balance or even how to achieve balance when struggling to find the time to observe the practices I require to achieve that balance. My daily meditation practice has become quite sacred to me and my Asana practice following closely. This week the Vata winds blew into my house, shook my alter & knocked me from my centre. My thoughts were erratic & irrational. I fought to find time to practice those sacred practices I need to ground my energy.
Being of Vata- Pitta constitution I was fully aware as the winds blew stronger & the temperature changed I would be effected by this Vata season. But as if observing from the outside I let myself fall into a Vata frenzy. Each day sitting to mediate but allowing my mind to jump like that wicked monkey, rolling out the mat only to roll it back up as I’d ‘first’ to do X…Y…Z. I tried without really surrendering, without Santosa, to ‘change’.
After a few sleepless nights and crazy days that followed I finally just stopped. I realised that was it, I needed to just stop… Forget the jobs, emails, house and just stop. So I battened down the hatches and went to bed. I slept solidly for 9 hours and awoke refreshed and a little more grounded. That morning, instead of my usual Pitta driven Vinyasa I practised Restorative yoga and sat in meditation without any expectation to deliver a ‘good’ practice I felt better for a while. The next day as I blew around still as Vata but a little more earthed I did my practices again adding some Apana Vayu pranayama and got closer to balance. By day three I’m now on the road to closing the windows and coming back to my centre.
Life will always throw us struggles to make sure we’re really listening and not just becoming complacent. I’m so grateful to my practice that it offers different solutions for different days. I’m grateful to the wonderful teacher I’ve had that were open to different modalities & yoga practices. Everyday I’m learning so much through yoga and about Yoga and I am honoured to be able to acknowledge how lucky am I.